Have you ever

I posted in one of the bloggie's comment before, not sure whose it is and now i feel like posting in my own blog.. ;)

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever..

Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

... ... ... ...

(* I'm alone here at the hotel room hehe..., roomate is taking shower..i wish i have this song now... another fav of mine )

Early Birds

Although my birthday is yet to come, so far I've received few gifts from my friends as my birthday present. Let me share with you hehehe

1st:-
England Jersey from Huei Li & Adriane. Thanks sweeties !!!











2nd:-
My Rogers. Hahaha thanks guys ( u know who you are ) for the big surprise!!!
The pic was just snapped. It is late at night now and I was alone outside taking pic, so the result of the pic is bad. Will snap it again tomoro ya.







3rd:-
Pinkie pillow from MF, Selina, Angel, Yarly
Thankie thankie ;)












4th:-
Birthday Cake from U ( again, U know who U are ;) )











5th:-
Haha, Message in the bottle ( bottle full of shells )
Paul, Thanks!!!

The Right Kind of Wrong

There's this song called "The right kind of wrong" by Leann Rimes, that's one of the the OST of Coyote Ugly. I like Coyote Ugly very much so automatically I love the OST too.

This song is talking about this gal who should not love this guy(because of some reasons which I dunno what's that. Though in the song it says it is because of "reputation") , but she still cant help it, still loves this guy so much. So she calls it as The right kind of wrong. She knows that there's no wrong to love someone, but if it is heartbreak situation in return, then it may be a wrong thing to continue loving this guy. In fact, yea I know this is a very subjective issue, it is depends on the individual to decide how to handle such situation. One may choose to continue the "one side love", one may choose to chop off the feeling, one may try to change the situation by putting more efforts to get the one he/she loves, etc.

Met up a friend for yum cha yesterday and she actually shared with me her experience in this. She has a new colleague who is almost the same age as her and they started to know each other better as they share the common interests. According to her, this guy treats her very nice. But this friend of mine, she has no special chemical feeling towards this guy initially but since he treats her so nice, her heart "belted" a little. Thus she started to go out with him. And from there, the feeling developed. But at the same time, she is confused of what is between this guy and her because the guy did not confess to her "officially". She only "sensed" that this guy might have certain extend of interest on her. There was once they went out together till late night and this guy was so tired to send her home and asked her to stay over to his place. My friend did actually stay overnight at his place. She knew that either from moral or religious perspective, she shouldn't do that. But she failed to control her emotion. This is her version of "right kind of wrong".

In our life, did we face this kind of confused situation before? I myself will say YES definitely and I'll call it the grey area whereby you don't know what you should do or you do not know whether you are doing the right thing. Perphaps you know what you should do but you just don't want to do it, as it is human nature to be too comfortable to stay at it is and afraid of changes. Perphaps you have the right answer with you, but you are just like the gal in the song, cant help it by doing the right kind of wrong.

后来的我们

第一次在电视听这首歌， 只觉得那不过是首很品冠风味的歌， 没什么特别的感觉或感触。。。。。。
第二次在KTV听恺力唱这首歌, 我看着字幕, 特地留意歌词, 那歌词触动了我心。。。。。。

后来的我们又被谁而遇上
忍痛许久的伤终于能原谅
才明白眼泪只是一种行囊
而我们都是彼此幸福的转站

每一个幸福的背后, 都曾有过无数的伤痛和泪水。。。。。。

擦干了眼泪, 幸福就在前方招手呀。。。。。。

懒洋洋的夏午

懒洋洋的夏午
陪着我的只有一杯红茶
和三颗草莓
懒洋洋的思绪
疲惫的身躯
还是解不了心中的那个谜

just wanna write something in chinese coz suddenly i feel that i love chinese so much ;)

Can time be fast forwarded?

I'm eagerly looking forward to the, "Recharge Revelation, The ultimate beach party" at Port Dickson on this Saturday.

...beach...sand...breeze.. music...party... SHUFFLE ( i like to see the dance moves ) ...

Can time be fast forwarded to this saturday now?

* b-( * aiyah... kena whack from Reality pulak... okok..get real..no more dreaming...better get back to my study now... hehe

One Flaw In Women

One Flaw In Women
***********************

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200
movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
"But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own
heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and
negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the oman's
cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow,
her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better
solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get
wards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when
they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care
about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH

Puzzle

I have a puzzle with me.. but I do not know how to fit them up. Trying my best to puzzle them up so that I can have a big/clear picture. I know they will be fit in somewhere someday, but certainly not now. . . . . .

Sorry

I posted something about disappointment last night. I was not so happy last night. This morning when I woke up, the feeling is gone already. I feel bad coz of my emotional out blast last night . Things always happen for reason/s.

Someone,
Sorry ya... ;)

Out here on my own

I named my blog as "out here on my own" because I want it to serve as a place for me to blast out when i need to do so...and now...it's the right time for me..thanks to my blog...

we always say dont expect so high... expectation will lead to disappointment..this is true..But I am still learning hard not to expect...

I do have expectations to frens around me...of course not everyone of my frens... somehow I will have higher expectation to the one I close with...close frens of mine should have understood/experienced it..

tonight, someone kinda disappointed me..i dunno what word to use here.."disappointed" sounds too serious in this case... and may be the someone in fact did not disappoint me...may be there's just misunderstanding..may be i'm just being too sensitive..may be i'm just being too negative...may be i'm just too "chong tong"...may be and may be and may be and may be...

what i wanna say here is " it's the thought that counts" ... all the times... i know what i'm writing now is messy.. there is no linkage at all.."no head no tail"... but..that's what in my mind now...

there are some words which can relate to disappointment....and "promise" is the first word came to my mind now...what else we can relate to "disappointment'? spare me some please...

Promise... I like this song called "All or Nothing" by O Town...it says that

" Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell
Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all"

will happy be contagious also?

I am singing Karaoke now... Mice, KL, MF and I...4 of us...i guess everyone here is happy...will happy be contagious also? I'm happy, are you happy now? If I feel happy now, will you feel the same?

T0 all of you out there, be happy always!!!

Why Do You Club?

I watched this TV show on last Sunday. It's about clubbing. In the show, they have hot chics who hang out in the club very often, they have bartenders in the show as well. The VJ thrown this question to the bartenders : " Do you feel lonely in heart although you work in a noisy and happening place?" Most of the bartenders answered "Yes" to the question. They live in different lifestyle. In the club, they are approached by gals, but it's quite hard for them to start a relationship as their working time is different from most of people. That's the reason why they do feel lonely most of time.

Then this VJ asked this question to the floor, "Why do you club? you club because you feel lonely or?" This question really caught my attention. I asked this question to myself on the spot and my mind was like a mess, I couldn't find a solid answer for myself. Do I club because I feel lonely? Do I club because I wanna get drunk? Why do I wanna get drunk?

For the past 2 days, i've been searching for the answer. And this morning while I was driving to work, I've got my answer at last. And the answer is: I club because the excitement of anticipation. Anticipation of my fav songs. Of course the fun/enjoyment is there lah.

Everytime before i go clubbing, I will think that what songs is Mr DJ gonna play in the club tonight? Will there have my fav songs? ( * Anticipation * ) Once Mr DJ plays my fav songs in the club, my mood will be so "high" so exciting. Hahaha, then I'll be guessing what song will Mr DJ play next? ( *Excitement * ) And of course, I do feel disappointed if Mr DJ doesnt play any of my fav songs on the night. hehe.

So, why do you club? Guess the general expected answer will be " for fun lerr" ;)

Satisfaction

hehe, im not gonna write something about the song Satisfaction although I like it so much. It is about time I spent for last Sunday. It was a "quality" Sunday I'll call it, hehe.

I had a very good sleep on last Saturday night, thus I woke up pretty early on Sunday morning. After having breakfast with my sister, I did some houseworks. Cleaning up my room, did some laundry, rearranging clothes inside my wardrobe, etc.

After all the houseworks, i took the shower and proceed to prepare my lunch. My lunch was a healthy one. Alfalfa, tomatoes, carrots and some mixed fruits. Hahaha, what a weird combinations huh? I think it is low in calories, though. Recently I find out that I turned to be a veg person, crazy for vege and fruits. hehe.

Once finished preparing for food, I lazed on the sofa with a bowl of salad plus pineapple juice, accompanied by my book of course. At that moment, I felt so satisfied with my Sunday, a day without work, without any worries; a day with full of rest and relax. I wanted to have such a lovely sunday for very long already, but i'd been very busy for work for like a month ago, so havent really got the time to do so, and finally, i managed to get what I want now, i felt so satisfied. With all these satisfactions, slowly, i felt asleep on the sofa, with a smile in my afternoon nap.

"wake up de la, still sleep like a pig" I was waken up by my bro. Oh no, it's already 4 something in the afternoon. But I felt so tired still, so i switched on the tv and continue lazing on the sofa till the dawn came...

So now it's dinner time. I had a simple and nice family dinner at home. Had a good laugh with my family. And after dinner, I continue reading my book. About 9pm plus, "accidentally" I watched this TV show which is about clubbing. The TV show caught me thinking why do I club so often nowadays. Will blog about this later on.

I went to bed at around 10pm plus on Sunday night. It was just another normal Sunday, but to me, it's full of satisfactions.

Bad service at Dome, Lot 10

Yesterday I met up with my 2 close friends, Huei Li and Kee at BTS. Huei Li brought her sister too who came back from UK for holiday. After having lunch, we started to shop since it is the Mega Sales season now.

After getting tired of shopping at BTS, we walked over to Lot 10. Once reached Lot 10, we went to Dome for drinks as Huei Li was craving for the Twister drinks. There was very crowded but we managed to get our seats. We were happy because finally we managed to sit down to rest. After placing our order, we were too tired to talk so we just sat down and relax. We were really very thristy and hoping the drinks will be delivered fast. After quite some times, the drinks were not delivered yet and we started wondering why. I wanted to check with one of the waitress but she did not even stop and talk to me after i said "excuse me" to her. What a rude waitress!!! At that point of time, all of us were angry. Huei li saw that there were drinks at the counter which looked like what we ordered. So she stood up and walked to the counter to check with the manager. But still, we had not got our drinks after that. We again checked with one of waiter and telling him if we still havent got our drinks in 5 minutes time we will just leave. After a short while, the manager delivered our drinks. The ice in the Mocha drinks were all melted. We complaint to the manager but as usual, he just gave us some excuses.

Quickly we finished our drinks and paid the bill then we left, left with anger in heart... ...

A Lighter or MP3 Player

I went to Sony center at BTS yesterday and I saw this MP3 player which looks like a lighter. The design is nice but it's too pricey i think. It costs RM799 for a 512MB one. I'm still thinking should I get myself one mp3 player as I like to listen to music. Just worry I wont use it that often once I have it, then it will be a waste of money. Personally prefer a light and easy to carry and of course PLC ( peng leng cheng ) one.

Hehe, still cant make up my mind yet.

Crying

suddenly i feel like crying... im tired im exhausted..im emotional..im vulnerable...
player playing eason's "yu jian le ni" ...
Tears..holding back ya...

Leo Ku Live in Genting

Last time, I dont listen to Leo Ku's songs. One day, Loo Mice gave me this song called " Yam Tin Tong Lau Loi", which is sang by him. The lyrics of this song caught my attention so I started to listen to his songs. Day by day, I started to think that his song is not bad.

Recently I learn how to sing his "Keng Go Kam Khuck" and " Zhong Jian" in the Karaoke. The first one is a popular song in K and the latter one is kinda old but I like it very much. Other songs of his like "love and sincere" , "phit sak kei" , "wang le shi jian de zhong" are nice too.

Leo Ku is having his concert in Msia on this coming Septermber and Im planning to go for his concert with Loo Mice/Kai Lit/TKM. Too bad, the Rm150 price ticket which we are planning to buy are all sold out. Now, we are under waiting list, waiting for someone to release the booked ticket.

Im kinda looking forward to this concert because it's been such a long while I never go for any concerts. Pray hard we will get out tix ya.

Something we Forget in Life

Got this from forwarded mail:-

A group of working adults got together to visit their University lecturer. The Lecturer was happy to see them. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

The Lecturer just smiled and went to the kitchen to get an assortment of cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in glass, some plain looking and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.

The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to get drinks for themselves. When all the students had a cup in hand with water, the Lecturer spoke: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal that you only want the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all you wanted was water, not the cup, but we unconsciously went for the better cups."

"Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."

"If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy the water in it."

A beautiful Monday, but...

First day of August, I started my day with smiles...

6.00am Got up from my bed, shower
6.20am After shower, changing clothes, put on a lil make-ups
6.50am Started my journey to work, accompanied by my fav song recently ;)
7.40am Passed by Zouk, a place "barred" by me since 4 months ago, 1st smile in my heart
7.45am Reached PAMB office
7.50am Having breakie at 7U, accompanied by my fav roti bakar+nescafe+my book and the best thing was love songs were playing at my breakie place, nice old love songs such as Nothing Gonna Change My Love for U, Must Have Been Love, Shower Me with Your Love, etc . There are all my favs, 2nd smile in my heart
8.05am I decided to blog this out because it's beautiful Monday, 3rd smile in my heart
8.15am Met Lin Ho ( a colleague of mine) at 7U, had a quick catch-up chat with him
8.30am Started working
1.00pm Having awful lunch at 7U, :(
1.15pm Received sms from Kai Lit saying that TKM is going to buy Leo Ku's concert tix + booking room tomoro, need to pay him $ by today. Thanks TKM!!! I dont have a internet banking account, so I asked Kai Lit to transfer the money to TKM for me first and he agreed on that,phew, Thanks Kai Lit!!!
2.30pm Reached SSH office
2.35pm Started working
4.00pm Looking forward to Leo Ku's concert, 4th smile in my heart
6.35pm Finished work, bye bye London room, byebye SSH, see u on Wed
6.45pm The traffic was jam and I made an iilegal turning
6.43pm I saw the traffic polices were there waiting for me, I took up all my cash in my purse and left a Rm50 notes inside. I was stopped. :(
6.46pm i bribed the traffic police with 50 bucks. :(
6.52pm Reached BTS, had my hair cut, window shopping
9.00pm On my way back from BTS, accompanied by my fav song recently, 5th smile in my heart
9.30pm Reached home
9.40pm Started to blog this out + Dinner ;)
and now
10.31pm I'm finishing my blog but do u think it's a beautiful Monday for me? ;)