28.08.2009

Happy 30th Birthday to myself!

Suddenly, I feel so proud of myself.

I am the youngest in the whole team here. And I am the only person without any technical background here; and yet, I can be part of them.

Tough for me? Maybe, but this is definetely a very good chance for me to step up to a higher level.

I see light now.

A Warm Heart; A Warm Smile

- 5th day at new job, I am already busy at work. Good thing to me. Something to keep me busy. Something that motivates me
- I've seen lights, there're paths for me. But as of now, I've set some goals. Let's see. Let's wait for the result.
- I am walking towards the immediate goal set. Step by step, it looks good. I thank myself for my past experiences that contributed to me a lot. Every steps we take in our lives, there will be foot prints left.And the foot prints will bring you to where you should belongs to.
- On the other note, the fear subsided. The worries I carry all along, finally I can put them down. I'm happy for that. Thanks. That just made the other path stable and stronger.
- A warm smile I carry in my warm heart.

I Just Cannot Tolerate This

Ok, today is my last day at work with my current employer. There are just too many things I cannot agree with my current employer that caused me to leave. Maybe it is the mindset, that I always think that I do not belong to this current 'family'. I deserve something much more better than what I am having now, and I want to take on more challenges which here, there's no room for me to grow further.

Ok, back to the stuff, things that I cannot agree. Like 2 mins ago, my boss still asked me to check something for her. Just simple steps to perform for the check, I do not understand why cant she learn to do it herself, or get someone to learn for her. I am leaving this place in about 3 hours time, and I will take away whatever knowledge with me. There is no one else in this firm will know how to do that check. I learnt it on my own during my time here. I suggested to do a knowledge transfer to my junior to my boss, she rejected that. I just cant agree with her on this? Why cant she let me transfer my knowledge to someone is still serving the firm? Again, when I go, I will just go and leave nothing behind for the firm. Will this be good to this firm? I do not think so, that is why I could not agree with my boss on the knowledge transfer thing. So fine, you do not want a knowledge transfer, fine with me then. Employee is always the asset to a firm, I believe in that. How can a firm be successful without the employees?

I am really pissed, I really cannot tolerate, when I am leaving soon, there are still things that people here do not know and still asked me to do it for them without learning it themselves. When I leave, whos going to do that?

I fucking cannot tolerate the way the management works here. Cannot.

Fine, there are more challenges waiting for me to get through. I shall care no more on such a stupid things.

All the best to me, in my new job.

Here,

I could not breathe here, but Thank God, soooon, I will be able to.
I do not belong to here, somewhere out there is the place I belong to.
I will lose my mind, continue my stay here.
I used to be the one who put that in order, but when the time comes, no one here could take up the responsibility.
I see no reason to be sad, to be happy to celebrate I want to be.

To leave this place ASAP, I want to!

I cant wait to leave here, just leave!

No turning back!!!!

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